In the meantime, my dear friend, Sara (in her 30"s), had begun using P90 and turned into a super model. Yes, I paid close attention to that and the other changes she was making in her life. She got off sugar (with few exceptions), started eating clean for a lifestyle, and seemed happier than ever. I love a good success story especially if I see it unfolding right in front of my eyes. Knowing what her weight had been before she started, I figured that if she could do it, then so could I. I never have had the sense to stay away from some big challenge that obviously seems impossible to someone my age. So I started working out with her 1- 2 times a week. God knows, I looked so goofy and weak.
I kept on with my goofy self and sure enough I started to get stronger. Lesson: when you have nothing to lose but weight, goofy doesn't matter. Plus, my workout partner was so gracious and has some pretty funny memories. Can I tell you how much more motivated I am when I work out with her? Little things like that make alot of difference.
Because I know I can do it now, we start P90X on April 1, 2012. This Friday, we photograph (good for her, so sad for me), weigh , and measure. I forgot that she's entering us in a contest. Eeek!
The food plan won't start until Sunday but I went ahead and got off sugar. I use Tim Ferris' Slow Carb Plan from his book, "The 4-Hour Body." It's simple and finite. From being on it for only three days, I am down four pounds. I like the food, too. My body is so relieved to be off sugar that it began stabilizing right away. Go check this out for your self.
Now, I still had to deal with the relationship stuff. I have some skill in this area but I'll admit I couldn't fix this one. I felt both terrified and so very angry. God had already planned my rescue. On Sunday, I had my hysterical crying fit where He showed me that I hated Him for allowing yet another sick person into my life. I had to admit it before I could quit it ( and ask for forgivenes). It brought up a level of pain that I didn't know was there. It was hard but necessary to admit I had these awful feelings. They were driving my desire to eat the very things my body reacted to with weight gain. I had tried in vain to soothe them away with the wrong food. It wasn't alot of food all the time but it was simply wrong for my aging, sugar-sensitive body.

So what about Pilate's and P90X? That's what so wonderful...when I do a P90X workout and then do Pilate's behind that as I teach the next class, Pilate's undoes all the bad body sensations caused by the very strenuous P90X exercise. Pilate's has that magical ability to heal the body from so many things. I now have the best of both worlds working for me.
We will blog our progress to help any other takers on the P90X on a new blog. I'll give you the new link in the next post.
Hey, always remember to bring your own sunshine with you wherever you go...