Perfectly Lovely

For the first time since I began teaching Pilates, I gained significant weight. If you know nothing about that, I both hate you and want what you have. Teaching with extra weight makes it  harder to do all the moves I want. My clothes don't fit nicely. These things, added to an already intense fear of being fat, can cause me to think in a very different and negative way about myself. Before Pilates, I'd panic and do something rash to get rid of it and, that will bring the weight back on  faster that not dieting. There is a difference in the way I feel about my body now. I'll  never forget the moment when I began to love and appreciate my body. After six months or so of  regular Pilates, I had an epiphany. I suddenly realized that I loved my body. I'd seen it change and strengthen but it was more than that.  In Pilates, I had to apply my mind to the work my body is doing so the mind/body connection had healed. My mind was no longer working against my body. Now, the extra weight I carry doesn't make me hate my body. I still don't like it but I feel more patient and caring towards me.  I wish this for every woman on the planet. Other forms of exercise are effective but only on Pilates can you heal the rift between and mind.  I feel perfectly lovely and I like it.